beep beep!

I absolutely hate the fact that I thought you were different from all those douche-bag assholes and...

Fri, 28 Oct 2011 22:31:18 -0400

I absolutely hate the fact that I thought you were different from all those douche-bag assholes and now looking back I notice all the things that shouldn’t have been, if you were really different.

I want to be famous, I want to be idolized—I want people to look at me and say how good of a job I’m doing.

I hope you see me on a video somewhere when I’m famous and just think about it for a sec.

today.

Thu, 27 Oct 2011 01:45:35 -0400

The perfect memory came back to me today. I don’t know how. I sat on my bed and there was a certain smell that for some reason brought back a feeling from last summer. Would you believe me if I said that the best time I’ve ever had in my life was with you guys playing mario kart? Why is it that when i remember this it feels so different than anything else I can remember…those are just memories but this I can still feel. Its like I’m there, and I can only wish that I could be there right now.

Part of my mind still thinks that this can happen again, and I almost feel sorry for it because it doesn’t realize I can never go back to this moment in time, I can’t even try to re-create it. I hope I can atleast keep this unique feeling stored in my mind for a while longer.

I can’t explain why I strongly desire approval from my astronomy professor. But for now,...

Thu, 27 Oct 2011 01:31:22 -0400

I can’t explain why I strongly desire approval from my astronomy professor. But for now, I’m quite sure she doesn’t even know how to match my face to the papers I’ve been handing in. I know my work shows that I’m doing a good job…but that, to me, is useless because its just a name. Its mine but it could belong to any face in the room so why try to hide the fact that I’m spaceing out when I already have the approval I need on paper.

Video

Wed, 20 Apr 2011 23:24:23 -0400

Its always kind of a dissapointment when you realize that you aren’t actually as good as...

Wed, 13 Apr 2011 01:23:51 -0400

Its always kind of a dissapointment when you realize that you aren’t actually as good as you thought you were at the one thing you thought you were good at.

today wasn't the best day, but tomorrow will be better. =]

Tue, 12 Apr 2011 01:08:32 -0400

if i don’t make the decision on what i’m going to do next year after high school then i...

Mon, 11 Apr 2011 02:05:21 -0400

if i don’t make the decision on what i’m going to do next year after high school then i guess i’m not going to do anything at all. ehh, but i don’t want to do that.

i’ll decide eventually. at the last minute. i’m pretty good at last minute things.

for we do share quite so many inside jokes.

Mon, 11 Apr 2011 01:56:06 -0400

its kinda funny that the whole time i was dating him i still liked you more. i remember when i finally got the courage to talk to you and soon after you started dating the girl of your dreams and i kept talking to you, until we became somewhat good of friends, and despite my desire for your perfect relationship to end, it didn’t, and soon after i started dating a guy…(not quite the guy of my dreams but hey…) and we talked even more. you asked me to hang out and even though my heart jumped i knew that you were still in love with her and i had a boyfriend of my own and it was strictly a “just friends” kinda thing and i guess i have to face the fact that we’ll never be more than that, which is fine i mean even though i’m not dating him anymore, you’re still in love with that girl and there’s nothing i can do about that.

on the plus side, i dyed my hair a crazy bright orange (yay for being spontaneous and weird) and i’m going to pierce a second hole on my ear by myself sometime in the near future.

Mr. know-it-all super-planner money success man,

Sat, 09 Apr 2011 01:21:47 -0400

i would rather live for today and spend little time seeking temporary happiness than working for years to achieve success and money, ultimately long time happiness. (still questionable) I don’t care if you’re 50 and you have all the money in the world because i know that somewhere you wish you would have had a little more fun in the years that you could, and thats why i’m having fun while i can and you’ve got to understand that its a point of view and this is my view, have your own but understand that we are different.

hippiemp3: The Velvet Underground - I’ll Be Your Mirror

Sun, 27 Feb 2011 16:10:59 -0500

hippiemp3:

The Velvet Underground - I’ll Be Your Mirror

fuck the snow

Sat, 26 Feb 2011 22:08:39 -0500

fuck this cold weather.

stapeling the slerpling staplermeent

Sat, 26 Feb 2011 22:02:59 -0500

don’t let me forget this…

Photo

Fri, 25 Feb 2011 20:49:00 -0500

I never do anything productive on weekdays. this is why i like weekends. sometimes on the weekends i...

Wed, 23 Feb 2011 23:44:23 -0500

I never do anything productive on weekdays. this is why i like weekends. sometimes on the weekends i will rake my yard or clean my room, accomplish some sort of task at home or away, and i feel good because i’m doing something. but weekdays…i literally don’t do anything, and if i do something, then it is something like, i beat my high score on snake. blah, i want spring. none of this snow…not good. blah.

this summer's mission

Mon, 21 Feb 2011 23:47:40 -0500

I am going to build a tree house in a secluded forest and i am going to live in it. guests are welcome.

vegan applesauce apple muffins and waffles made with bananas.

Mon, 21 Feb 2011 05:03:42 -0500

one thing i enjoy about becoming vegan is that i’ve been cooking a lot more than i ever have. I discovered that despite the fact that nothing i make turns out quite as good as when it is made by others, i thoroughly enjoy it.

days are made with waterfall colors, couldn't i make you stay?

Mon, 21 Feb 2011 05:00:00 -0500

when i touched your hand a surge of electricity went through my fingertip, up through my arm, and into my chest. i used to dream about this moment and now that it is real, i look back on it only to remember it as if it were only a thought, or a dream.

i dream of smelling words and feeling sounds but this is even more surreal. never in real life even with any amount of drugs should i be able to feel something so great and so strong, especially not from just one touch, and i’d like to be comfortable with the feeling no matter how unrealistic and imaginative it may be.

i get now why people want to spend every minute together. If you never leave, then i will never have to contemplate whether or not what i felt was only a thought i had before falling asleep and if you never leave then i will never have to lay awake craving the feeling i had earlier that day.

it is 2 in the morning and all i can think about is how much i just want to lay down next to your warm body and drift off with you against my side. no amount of blankets can recreate the warmth i felt earlier today because my body cannot be fully warm unless i am beside you.

=]

Sun, 20 Feb 2011 00:01:11 -0500

happiness!

me and sarayu summer of 2010

Sat, 19 Feb 2011 23:57:33 -0500

me and sarayu summer of 2010

my stupidity makes me popular among small children. I am perfectly ok with this. I am also perfectly...

Sat, 19 Feb 2011 23:28:56 -0500

my stupidity makes me popular among small children.

I am perfectly ok with this.

I am also perfectly ok with mixing chips, noodles, olives, cheese, and canned pineapple in a bowl with food coloring, microwaving it for thirty seconds, and eating it to make the kid laugh.

I also don’t find it even slightly embarrassing that i need to ask a 5 year old for help with operating the TV.

Now, come! let us stick lollipops to our foreheads and run like unicorns!